Hair Post

I decided to wear my hair out today. I was pretty nervous at first. I thought people would stare the same way I was staring at myself in the mirror. lol. But once I get outside, I noticed that no one gave a crap. I got the same amount of looks that I would on a day to day basis. Realizing that people were too busy minding their own, I was able to relax. And once I did that, I forgot my hair was "different" (until I saw my reflection), and went on with my errands as normal. It was nice being free. Nice to just walk around like myself. It really felt good to like me and not worry (too much) about others perception.

I'm noticing that I'm not happy. I'm content. I'm content with myself. I like myself. I love myself, flaws and all. But I'm not happy. And I really want to be. I don't how to be though. And I think it's gonna take more than moving back home to get to happiness. Normally, this would be the point that I would say that I would be happy in the summer. I'll work my way to happiness when I have free time. When I'm having fun with family and friends. But not this time, that's not good enough. I have to work on it now. If I'm not happy now, I'm not gonna be happy when I'm home. It's not the city. It's me. I don't know why and I don't know how to get happy. But I do know that I need to change something. And I need to start trying to figure out exactly what it is I need to change before I go home.

Anyways, that was just a thought I had while typing this up. Some times, you just gotta let stuff out. With that being said, here are some pics from today:







I wanted to see how my hair would look in a puff:

Changes

freshman year vs. senior year

*I don't bleach my skin. they were taken at different times of the year....

I need to start incorporating music into this thing. When I first started it, I was focused on music only. Somehow I got away from that. So from now on, I'm doing at least one music post a week.

shame on me

I have once again neglected my blog...*shame *shame *shame on me. And once again i'm gonna make some changes. Since myspace acquired imeem all my music post have dissapeared. I havent quit figured out how to get music on here without imeem so ill jus have to give up on the music until i figure it out....Because no one reads this. Im also gonna start adding a few random things. Mainly my thoughts [i really need an outlet besdies twitter or facebook or some crap like that]. Ill also be throwing out a few random nail polish post [my new obsession. lol] and probably something to do with fashion...Ultimately this blog will probably just end up being random, void of any theme. lol