Embellishment

I notice I embellish stories. I don't do it often and theyre usually small, unimportant stories, but I still do it. It bothers me because not only is embellishment a verbal form of lying, and I can't stand lying, but also beacuse I have a friend who I'm constantly claiming I can't trust because she embellishes everything. That fact alone makes me a hypocrit. And the only thing I hate more than lying, is being hypocritical. So this behavior must stop. Now that I've noticed it, it can be addressed. And trust me, it will...

I am Not a Bad Girl

So I'm having a convo with a "friend" of mine and I tell him that I havent smoked since March. His response was that I'm officially no longer a bad girl.... o_0

That was odd to me because I never thought of myself as a bad girl. But now that I think of it, I kind of was/am. I only thought of myself as good because I'm a pure virgin. But thats really it. I've smoked, drank well before I turned 21, got tattoos and piercings behind my parents back, and done quit a few other things that definitely wouldnt be considered "good."

I just thought it was funny that the ONLY reason I considered myself a good girl was because I've never had sex and because I'm in school (and am doing good, but not even great). Lol. I mean technically, I'm just as bad, if not worse than some of friends, the only difference is that I'm slick with mine and dont go telling the world everytime I do something.

Hmm. Just a little food for thought. I gotta keep checking and analyzing myself. If not, this road to maturity would be impossible....

I am NOT Better

I have a tendency to think I'm "better" than some people. I've been through a lot in my life, but was also blessed with parents who helped me to accomplish alot. As hard as I try not to, I sometimes look down on people. But it's never on purpose, and whenever I realize I'm doing it, I immediately try to derail that train of thought. I feel like that as human beings we tend to automatically look down upon one another. But what we all, including myself, need to realize is that just because some of us were blessed with certain opportunities that allowed us to live "successful" lives (at least according to societal norms), that doesnt mean that those who arent as blessed aren't just as great. Anywho, I'm only writing this because I'm always trying to better myself and when I notice something about my personality that I don't particularly like, or something that I wouldnt like if it were done by someone else, I always try to analyze it and figure out how I can go about changing it. It's all apart of my journey to become a more mature individual...