We're only 3wks into the new year and Im already feeling 10x more confident than I've ever been! Im loving my skin, my hair (in all its various states), my body, my brain and thoughts. Im just loving me, and it feels great!

As lonely as I am out here, it's nice knowing that I'm secure with myself. It's impossible to have someone love u when u dont even love yourself. I'm hoping that this year just gets better and better, and that I continue to love myself more and more. Hopefully this confidence and inner acceptance manifest itself on the outside and catches the attention of some wonderful people! =)

I am Not a Bad Girl

So I'm having a convo with a "friend" of mine and I tell him that I havent smoked since March. His response was that I'm officially no longer a bad girl.... o_0

That was odd to me because I never thought of myself as a bad girl. But now that I think of it, I kind of was/am. I only thought of myself as good because I'm a pure virgin. But thats really it. I've smoked, drank well before I turned 21, got tattoos and piercings behind my parents back, and done quit a few other things that definitely wouldnt be considered "good."

I just thought it was funny that the ONLY reason I considered myself a good girl was because I've never had sex and because I'm in school (and am doing good, but not even great). Lol. I mean technically, I'm just as bad, if not worse than some of friends, the only difference is that I'm slick with mine and dont go telling the world everytime I do something.

Hmm. Just a little food for thought. I gotta keep checking and analyzing myself. If not, this road to maturity would be impossible....

Hair-spiration

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All seen here: http://hairlikeme.tumblr.com/ and here http://fuckyeahnaturalhair.tumblr.com/

I am NOT Better

I have a tendency to think I'm "better" than some people. I've been through a lot in my life, but was also blessed with parents who helped me to accomplish alot. As hard as I try not to, I sometimes look down on people. But it's never on purpose, and whenever I realize I'm doing it, I immediately try to derail that train of thought. I feel like that as human beings we tend to automatically look down upon one another. But what we all, including myself, need to realize is that just because some of us were blessed with certain opportunities that allowed us to live "successful" lives (at least according to societal norms), that doesnt mean that those who arent as blessed aren't just as great. Anywho, I'm only writing this because I'm always trying to better myself and when I notice something about my personality that I don't particularly like, or something that I wouldnt like if it were done by someone else, I always try to analyze it and figure out how I can go about changing it. It's all apart of my journey to become a more mature individual...

I Just Gotta Say

That I am freaking L-O-V-E-ing my hair right now!!!

It's getting so thick and healthy! I just...have no words. Its just so beautiful. and im so glad that despite what my family and others think about it and how many times they call it nappy, i can still embrace it, and fall more in love with it everyday!!!!

Nail Polish Post

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*without flash


OPI "Simmer and Shimmer" and "Bring on the Bling"

And It Begins

i've been spending alot lately, and it's really not okay. so i've decided to stop all unnecessary spending. starting now, im only buying the essentials. im going to take it month by month. but ideally, i would like to not spend for the whole semester. i was pretty successful in my no spendng beore. hopefully i can do even bettr this time!

"And Tell Cornell West that I'm Trynna Steal His FroOo!"

*Once upon a time, I wouldn't dare leave my house like this. Now-a-days, not only did I go out, but I took a photo shoot. lol

Nail Polish of the Week

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"Simmer and Shimmer" by OPI


I once told myself that I would NEVER wear glitter nail polish....then I saw this! And I am now hooked. This color is gorgeous to me. I love looking down at my fingers and seeing flakes of prettiness staring at me. lol. I love glitter polish so much that I'm having my local supply hold a bottle of gold OPI polish for me. I am now an addict. lol




-Disclaimer: please dont mind the newspaper, its all I could find. lol...oh. and didnt you notice the pic quality? my parents got me a camera for Christmas. They're the best!!!

2010

2010

Users
Movers
Liars
And "him"
That's really all I have to say
About twenty-ten.

Lets hope the next year
Is more inspiring.




At its core, 2010 was kind of boring.
I was boring. lol

My resolution for 2011, is of course, to be a better me.
To continue to grow.

My friend came up with a wonderful resolution, that I've chosen to steal

-To try to do things outside of my comfort zone. No more being safe inside my little box.

I really like that, and think it's a very simple yet noteworthy change that needs to occur in my life.

As this new year gets started, I'm trying not to get too hyped.

My motto for the year: "live with few expectations, just take advantage of every opportunity as it comes."

It's not too optimistic, yet not all emo and pessimistic. Just how I like it! lol




*Sorry about the stream of concious writing. I really didn't think this through before I started typing.